It has been 2 months since My Love and I began our TTWD journey. I can't believe it's been 2 months already...I can't believe it's only been 2 months! It seems like we've been working at this forever. We have learned so much, yet we still feel like we are fumbling around in the dark some days. I have spent hours (and I mean hours!) researching TTWD and reading blogs and though that information has been helpful the saying "there is no teacher like experience" seems to be more than appropriate.
I have really enjoyed watching John grow in his confidence. He is able to make decisions and then let me know what we're doing. He has managed to do it and still make me feel important and valued. "You have led this family for 13 years with very little input from me, so of course I value your opinion!" What's a girl to say to that! And if you've been reading along you know that I was afraid of losing myself, of losing my voice in this journey. He knows that I have a strong sense of justice and struggle when I feel something isn't fair. He always takes this into consideration before making a decision. He takes time to explain his decision to me so that even if I don't agree, I understand.
He is so attentive and knows me much better than I thought. All the years I thought he wasn't paying attention...he was. He really is an incredible man. He is so attentive to me and knows exactly what I need.
I can't believe how much closer this has made us. Our communication has gotten so much better. We talk every night. We discuss the things we like and the things that bug us. We are honest! Honesty...who'd have thought that would work! TTWD has given me a safety to talk to him and for him to talk to me. Truthfully I think it has given him the freedom to talk without fear of what I would say or do. He is free to express himself knowing that I will respect his opinion. It's an amazing thing!
I didn't realize how little respect I showed him. How little I valued his opinion and thoughts. It's a little disheartening.
But all that is changing. I have so much respect for him. So much confidence in his ability to lead us. He amazes me everyday!
I love you John! And I can't wait to see where you lead us to next...