Saturday, February 2, 2013

Submission Vacation???

My submission seems to be on vacation.

Looks like fun, huh?

Oh who I am kidding?  I don't think she ever really moved in.  It's more like a sweet friend who came to visit.  

She looks so peaceful, doesn't she?

She came in and unpacked all of her things:

I love that he's fully clothed and she is so vulnerable and the look of ecstasy on her face.
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She just seems so happy to be taking care of her man!

and

She gazes adoringly into his eyes...

and even some of this

maryannrabbit:

Safe…but not without pain
submitting to his will and trusting that he knows what's best.

Unfortunately, her stay was only short lived


and she left this chic behind

Okay, I have this shoe obsession and these just look sassy and in charge!

She didn't take everything with her when she left.  She left me with the motions of submission, but the spirit of it she seems to have taken.  On the outside I am still submissive.  I still take care of My Love, I still kneel in front of him and do other things that appear submissive, but inside I look a bit like this guy

NO!  It's not what you think!  Let me explain...he has his horns, but he's not about to charge (yet).  He seems a bit aloof and unaffected, distracted maybe.  He still has the potential to be dangerous, but at the moment is just assessing the situation. 

Maybe I need something that looks a bit more like this


That looks painful!

Maybe it would be easier if I had one of these


24 comments:

  1. Love this pictorial...I think we could all use that red button at times. Hope the spirit returns soon.
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks Abby! Oh how I wish I had that button! And the spirit of my submission has returned...hope she sticks around a while :)

      Hugs

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  2. AW! I love this post, you did amazing with the photos you chose!
    But really... I need that red button... because sometimes here.. it's the wrestling... HA HA!

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    1. Oh Emi! Not the wrestling! And that photo of the button is what started this whole post :)

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  3. I think I know what's going on. I've asked Ward to write something for John. He has some things to do but will get to it before lunch. She's not vacated sweetie, I think she's just hiding in the attic.

    (((hugs)))

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    1. Thank you so much June! Seriously! 2am is late! lol! I've said it before, but you and Ward are such a great resource for John and I. And maybe she was just in the attic...it just took my HOH to draw her back out of hiding :)

      Hugs back at ya my friend

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  4. LOVE the submit button! lol Aaaaah, if only it were that easy.

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    1. Hahaha Grace! If I could figure out how to make that button, I could be a millionaire! lol!

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  5. If you find one of those buttons send it my way. I wish it was that easy.

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    1. I think we all have that button already...unfortunately I think it's located on our tush and our HOH is the one who has to "push it" lol! Sorry, I know that's not helpful!

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  6. Hi P,
    Sometimes it helps me to think of submission as a goal, not this thing that is supposed to be with me all the time. Near the beginning of this journey, I only saw glimpses of her from time to time, so don't get too discouraged. I'll look forward to what Ward has to say...hopefully he'll put it up here or on their blog so that we can all take a peek. :)

    Hang in there, she's bound to poke her head out.

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    1. Thanks Susie! She did come out of hiding...hopefully she stays for a while. Things need to go much more smoothly when she's around :)

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  7. Hey P - I have an obsession with shoes also and those are beautiful and sassy!

    Wouldn't having one of those submit buttons be awesome but until they make one that works, sending lots of positive thoughts your way that you find the one within you soon.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Oh Cat! I love shoes! The more uncomfortable the cuter they must be! lol John thinks I'm nuts :) And I think I'm going to have to search out a pair of those red ones!

      Hugs

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  8. Hi P, love the pictures. Wouldn't a submit button be great! Hang in there. I agree with June, I think she is just hiding.

    (((Hugs)))
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz! Like I told TL, I think we all have that button...it's just inconveniently located on the tush and it takes an HOH to "push" the button :)

      Hugs back at ya

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  9. If you submission was really gone- you wouldn't be worried about all of this. Keep trying to eek her out. Listen to that little voice in you that you know is there. You think not listening to her is easier than listening, but you are causing yourself anxiety and transforming it into aloofness. Be brave, listen to her, and start by doing one thing that she suggests to you.

    You can do this. Use those fancy shoes to stomp your fears.

    Love
    Willie

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    1. Mmmmm Willie....like the idea of stomping around in new shoes! And yes she was still there...just not allowed out to play

      Love ya

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  10. Yep, a button. Send one my way?

    Sara

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    1. Miss Sara, you have the button already...it's located on your tush! And I bet you know someone more than happy to "push it" for you! lol

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  11. yeah i wish there was such a button

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    1. I've said it many times, but I'll let you in on the secret...you may not like it though. It's located in you tush! Just have to have that HOH "push it" lol! Told you you wouldn't like it!

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  12. My submission seems like it flips Ian the bird and takes off for long periods of time without any notice of where it went or went it might come home (with its tail between its legs.) I am coming to believe a have a submissive personality, and my other personalities gag her, beat her up and throw her in the closet from time to time.
    The button - great idea, but I am going to need them all over the house.
    hugs

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    1. So what happens after she's in the closet???? Oh right! Ian comes along and "beats" you to have her freed! lol...sorry that wasn't very nice or funny...ok so it was funny to me! But it wasn't nice :)

      Hugs

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