Monday, December 31, 2012

Explosions and Fireworks - Happy New Year!

I can hardly believe that another year is coming to an end.  I think I say that every year.  And just the same as the last, they continue to roll by, at an ever increasing speed...or so it seems.

So many things have happened.  The most life-changing for us has been introducing TTWD into our marriage.  It has only been 3 months, but it has made such a dramatic difference.  Oh, there have been some explosions.

  

There were times I felt like I was going to have to scrape the pieces of myself off of the ceiling and wondered if I'd ever find all of me.  I've wondered many times in this journey if I was losing myself. Don't get your panties in a wad or start sending e-mails.  That is not how we operate.  I still have an opinion.  Sometimes it just "feels" that I'm losing myself.   

Sometimes I felt like he was in a galaxy far far away.  Sorry for the Star Wars reference...my son LOVES it right now :) and didn't understand, and didn't get it.  He didn't get how this was supposed to work.  He didn't get how I felt...He didn't get me. 


Somehow through communication and love we would slowly begin inching toward one another again.  And when I finally looked up, as the smoke from our explosion began to clear...


What had come from that explosion was something beautiful. The explosions had always served to create more intimacy and closeness than before.  We are most definitely a work in progress, but we are communicating in a way I had never even thought was possible.  I never even knew communication on this level existed.  

I have begun to be more open and honest because it is what is best for us.  Though it's not usually what is best for my backside.  And John has started to step up and lead our family and make decisions that he never would have made otherwise.  I have seen his self-confidence grow.  I have realized the influence I have in our family and even in TTWD.  I have the ability with my words and actions to create a place of rest and comfort for my amazing husband and also for our children.  A place that is safe from the outside world.  A place of love and acceptance.  A place of security and intimacy.


A place where we can grow to become the people we want to be.  Where I can be what John deserves.  What are children deserve.  

This has been a crazy amazing journey and 2012 will be a year I will not likely forget.  I'll be reminded every time I sit down! Here's to a new year and new adventures in 2013!  May this year be full of love and joy for you all. 

 
Willie, this glass of submission wine is for you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

15 comments:

  1. So glad to hear things are going so well :)
    Have a Happy and Peaceful New Year!
    MrBB

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  2. Awwww. P you had me in tears---well until my glass of submission...then you cracked me up !

    I am so happy for you! I'm especially happy that as this year comes to a close you are in your happy place with John :)

    I so value your friendship my fellow trouble maker! Here's to things getting even better in 2013 !

    Much Love
    Willie

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    1. Willie you did notice that there are 2 glass didn't you? I'd never let a friend drink alone! Lol!

      I appreciate and value your friendship! Here's to getting into lots of trouble in 2013! Hopefull you'll get spanked on that Teflon tushie more ;)

      P

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  3. Happy New Year to you and John. May your journey continue to be all you hope it to be.

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    1. Thanks Sunnygirl! And Happy New Year to you as well

      P

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  4. Happy New Year P :)

    2012 will go down as quite an amazing year for us also! I am so happy to hear how happy you are...and how well things are going! I will remind you of this post in 2013 when you hit a tiny bump in the road..... ;) As long as you remind me how much I love Ryan even when he if full of......uh, HoH ;)

    Here is hoping 2013 is the BEST year for you and your family!

    Hugs....

    ~Lucy

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    1. Happy New Year Lucy!

      LOL! I will definitely remind you how much you love Ryan! And I must admit a frequent need to go back and read old posts ')

      I don't what I would've done without you least last few months. We are doing much better. That communication thing always gets me :)

      2013 is sure to be full of surprises, twists, and turns, but I know that John and I are able to navigate them all.

      Hugs back at ya!

      P

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  5. Wishing you and John a happy and loving New Year P.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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  6. Lovely post P, sounds like you two are in a good place. Happy for you!

    Happy New Year to you, John and family. Wishing you every blessing in the year ahead.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz! As I told Lucy, that communication thing always trips me up. Guess I'm a bit of a slow learner...

      Happy New Year!

      P

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  7. Happy New Year Pocahontas! This journey you're on isn't always easy, but it can be so rewarding! ;)

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    1. Happy New Year Grace!

      We have found that this journey can be trying at times, but is so worth the extra effort it takes to experience the closeness and intimacy that ttwd brings to our relationship.

      P

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  8. "...Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.

    The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.

    She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life..."


    It's a noble aspiration, P. (((hugs))), brightest blessings and peace in this new year :)

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