Our relationship was awkward. We didn't really know how to interact with one another. It was almost like being roommates, but worse. There was a distance...an unfamiliarity that had set in. I cried myself to sleep most nights and cried most days too. I was miserable and so was John. We decided to give ourselves a deadline for making this decision. We both agreed that living in this place of limbo was not good for either of us.
Things have been great between us. He is attentive and loving and stern and resolved. It's different than it was before. He's different. I'm different. He is taking the lead and putting rules and consequences in place for the betterment of our relationship. We've kept the things that worked before and scrapped the things that didn't. So we are moving forward together. Him leading the way and me right behind him.